An attempt at a come-back

Righto - so I keep promising that I'll make a comeback to my blog... and then I don't do it. It seems like it's been so long (wait... it HAS been so long) that I don't know where to start again.

I wanted to daily keep at this, then for some stupid reason I couldn't log on for weeks. Now that I can, where to start?

Okay - let's start with what's on my mind... discipline. Why am I so undisciplined? Like in every area of my life? (Here I go being honest... sigh.)

There's lots of things I *want* to do. I *want* to work out at the gym. I *want* to eat healthier. I *want* to get up early every morning and have some time to just sit, think, read my bible, drink some coffee, give myself a chance to be awake and alert when my girls get up. I *want* to spend time regularly praying with and for my wife. I *want* to be wiser with my money. Okay - that's a good laundry list of wants. Not such a good list of accomplishments.

I keep coming back to it regularly... I need to be accountable. There's this great little catch-phrase in the Christian subculture, that every man needs a "Paul, a Silas, and a Timothy"...

Paul - someone older and wiser in the faith - to build into me.
Silas - a comrade. Someone at about the same place in the journey.
Timothy - a younger brother in faith - someone to pour into.

Yeah... I'm 0 for 3 on this one right now.

So I'm really beating myself up for a comeback, eh? Funny thing - I'm not feeling particularly down. Just being honest. I think about this stuff regularly.

If I had that Paul and that Silas to walk with me, I'd have someone to stay accountible to. Someone to ask me how I'm doing - that knows my struggles. I've tried to find that person. I actually think I know who that "Paul" should be. We started, but really had a tough time making our schedules jive. I guess it's time to call him again and start over. Okay - someone out there in the blog world - keep me accountible on that one. You can be anonymous. Just ask me in a week if I've called my "Paul".

I think that would help me get started on (no wait - the problem isn't starting - it's sticking with) working at those personal disciplines.

Wow - nice comeback, eh?

Hmmm - maybe it's time to stop this post and do a couple others about things that are actually going on.