Mourning the dead

I don't know a single one of the 33 people killed today at Virginia Tech. But I mourn their deaths, and cry for their families tonight.

I was feeling sorry for myself today. I had a very unexpected (and expensive) van repair today. That's still painful.

But then I realize just how blessed I am to have my wife and my children safe at home with me at this moment.

What's up with this world that people commit such blatantly horrific acts? Donald Miller describes the problem well in "Blue Like Jazz" - the root of our problem is that we are self-absorbed. This person didn't consider others... he considered his own pain (or whatever the hell his reasons) to be more worthwhile than the 32 (+ families) other lives he destroyed. What a fool! I so want to use other words to describe him, and yet, I am called to love my enemies. I'm having difficulty... and I wasn't even personally affected.

I simply cannot imagine the pain of losing one of my children. I don't know how people live with the grief.

*sigh*

In memory of Craig's guitar

Craig recently bought a beautiful new acoustic - a "Cole Clark" from Australia. Not only does it look beautiful, but it sounds incredible. Such a warm, full tone. Lots of bottom end. You can see it below in several of the Good Friday pictures.

Yesterday morning, before the 3rd service, it fell off the stand and the headstock snapped off.

It was a sad moment for many of us. Craig is heartsick.

May you be resurrected soon, beautiful guitar. The question remains... even if you can be fixed, will you ever be the same?

Things I'm looking forward to this summer

At this moment, it's 5 degrees here. Normal highs for this time of year are low teens. A couple weeks ago, we had low to mid 20s and sunshine. Now I haven't seen much sun or temps above 5 for several weeks. Ugh. Spring came out for a bit, but it must've gotten chilly, so it went back inside by the fire. It's so bleh here I can't stand it.

So in anticipation of warmer weather, I thought I would make a list of things I'm looking forward to:

- Sandals, shorts and t-shirts without the long sleeves underneath
- Hearing the birds every morning
- Actually needing my sunglasses because it's too bright
- Opening the sunroof all the way (and not putting on the heat to compensate)
- Playing at various parks with the girls
- Picnics at those same parks
- Swimming at the pool
- Saturday afternoons at the beach
- Going to Gravenhurst to pick up my new kayak
- Kayaking the Grand River
- Kayaking Cootes Paradise
- Kayaking 16 Mile Creek
- Kayaking the Saugeen River
(noticing a theme here?)
- Kayaking the Hamilton Harbour
- Camping with the girls
- Camping and paddling with just Arja
- BBQing without wearing a jacket
- Mowing the lawn
- Sitting on the porch with Arja after the girls are in bed
- Ancaster Heritage Days Parade
- Canada Day
- Spending a weekend at a cottage
- Slow walks with Arja and the girls
- Working with Kanah on her biking - riding without training wheels
- Helping Taly become more accustomed to her trike
- Cleaning up the car and keeping it clean
- Walking the boardwalk at RBG and watching the birds eat from Arja's hands
- An afternoon pint on the patio at St Louis, Montana's or Jack Astor's
- Setting up the tent in the backyard for the girls
- Fresh strawberries
- Fresh peas
- Fresh corn
- Family Camp @ Kahquah? (the jury is still out on that one)
- Watching Kanah shred it up on a tube behind a boat
- Baptisms in 16 Mile Creek
- The Bruce Peninsula
- Canada's Wonderland
- Taking each of the girls kayaking

Ahhhh - that feels a little bit better.